Well it's not easy to say that the past few weeks have not been the greatest. I have heard so many people say they are done. Though, I'm always stuck wondering what they are done with? I mean there is a difference between being done, giving up, and saying it's over. To be quite honest I'm done too. I'm done with fighting about things that shouldn't even matter. I don't get why little things are such a big deal. You know people make mistakes. You know people change. So when those things happen to people have to act like it is the end of the world? Because I can assure you it's not.
They say when bad things happen you find out who your friends are. I am trying so hard not to let that saying get to me. I am not one to let go of friends so easily. I will try and try and try over and over. But it seems like I carry a lot of everything. I don't think I'm wrong when I say I was the one who kept us all together. I still do... I was the one who planned out nights. And I am usually the one who has to be the first to talk. I've learned to accept this I guess. It's just my job with my little group. It is a tiring job though and I think it's taken for granted. Don't think I'm complaining though. I'm just saying what I think and what seems to be real.
It's sad when you're at a party and they're asking where you're friends are and you say "All my friends hate me or live to far away." They laughed, I even laughed, because that doesn't sound right. Friends that hate you? Well maybe they don't hate me, but I surely don't feel any love.
I've been acquiring more freedom. Being sixteen, almost seventeen, and having a license gives you that. Freedom. I'm not attached to anyone. I'm just being me. I like to socialize and be chill. It's about to be summer and I need to have something to do. I'm ready for fun and like I said I'm done with fighting. Yes, I am a little selfish in the fact that I want to do what I want. But I also have given people their space. I do think we need more time together, though. I want this summer to be like last summer but even better!
They say when bad things happen you find out who your friends are. I am trying so hard not to let that saying get to me. I am not one to let go of friends so easily. I will try and try and try over and over. But it seems like I carry a lot of everything. I don't think I'm wrong when I say I was the one who kept us all together. I still do... I was the one who planned out nights. And I am usually the one who has to be the first to talk. I've learned to accept this I guess. It's just my job with my little group. It is a tiring job though and I think it's taken for granted. Don't think I'm complaining though. I'm just saying what I think and what seems to be real.
It's sad when you're at a party and they're asking where you're friends are and you say "All my friends hate me or live to far away." They laughed, I even laughed, because that doesn't sound right. Friends that hate you? Well maybe they don't hate me, but I surely don't feel any love.
I've been acquiring more freedom. Being sixteen, almost seventeen, and having a license gives you that. Freedom. I'm not attached to anyone. I'm just being me. I like to socialize and be chill. It's about to be summer and I need to have something to do. I'm ready for fun and like I said I'm done with fighting. Yes, I am a little selfish in the fact that I want to do what I want. But I also have given people their space. I do think we need more time together, though. I want this summer to be like last summer but even better!
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