I'm not sure how much sense it would make if I said, "I can't be independent without my friends."
I'm sure not everyone could figure out how this might make perfect sense if you're someone like me. I am a person who likes to be around people. I am quiet and it does take me a while sometimes to get past the awkward silence stages, but I like to be around people and laugh. This is why I have my friends. All my friends are so special to me. I like to do my own things though. I give my friends their space and they give me mine. I make my own decisions and have my own path I am chosing to follow. All making me fairly independent, but when I say independent I mainly mean: never needing a guy. I have been single now for almost two and a half years. It has been pretty awesome. I still talk to guys of course but have never gotten attached. Before that I had only three boyfriends which all lasted a week. Don't ask why. I'm not sure why. I guess I just like to be by myself. I am very independent you see.
So now to get to the part where "I can't be independent without my friends" comes in to play. I have my friends there to keep me grounded. I like to have my friends with me when I'm going out to do something. We can always end up making some kind of inside joke and laughing our heads off. But what if I did not have my friends? What if all the girls in my class turned against me? I can't branch off that much, it's not possible with how focused my schedule is. So who would I turn to? Most likely someone of the male persuasion. I don't think I'd get too attached but I would definately not be so independent. I would become dependent on his companionship just to fill the emptiness I would feel from losing all the people I had known.
Now I don't think I am going to lose any of my friends. I'm too stubborn and determined to let that happen. Though, I can't help but analyze my "What If"s.
I'm sure not everyone could figure out how this might make perfect sense if you're someone like me. I am a person who likes to be around people. I am quiet and it does take me a while sometimes to get past the awkward silence stages, but I like to be around people and laugh. This is why I have my friends. All my friends are so special to me. I like to do my own things though. I give my friends their space and they give me mine. I make my own decisions and have my own path I am chosing to follow. All making me fairly independent, but when I say independent I mainly mean: never needing a guy. I have been single now for almost two and a half years. It has been pretty awesome. I still talk to guys of course but have never gotten attached. Before that I had only three boyfriends which all lasted a week. Don't ask why. I'm not sure why. I guess I just like to be by myself. I am very independent you see.
So now to get to the part where "I can't be independent without my friends" comes in to play. I have my friends there to keep me grounded. I like to have my friends with me when I'm going out to do something. We can always end up making some kind of inside joke and laughing our heads off. But what if I did not have my friends? What if all the girls in my class turned against me? I can't branch off that much, it's not possible with how focused my schedule is. So who would I turn to? Most likely someone of the male persuasion. I don't think I'd get too attached but I would definately not be so independent. I would become dependent on his companionship just to fill the emptiness I would feel from losing all the people I had known.
Now I don't think I am going to lose any of my friends. I'm too stubborn and determined to let that happen. Though, I can't help but analyze my "What If"s.
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