Sink low into my bed. Pillow is propped up behind me.
Why can't I sleep? Why did momma have to wake me up? I knew I hadn't eaten. I didn't plan on eating. I didn't want to. I was tired and bored. What was so wrong with that? Then i go ahead and get up and spill pop all over the table and chair. i should have been in bed asleep! But no, everyone has to be rude and wake me up. Now I can't sleep anymore and I been laying her for two hours. it just makes me mad. And I been on edge for like weeks now! And all I want to do is cry. Can I have sex? Rough as hell sex? Sex that will make me cry, yell, scream? Sex that leaves bruises, hickeys, bites, and scratches that are more than skin deep? Sex that is on the floor, on the table, on the couch but feels like you traveled the world? Sex that just gets you going you don't even know what you're doing or how you knew to do it like that? Sex that puts you in a crazy state of numb ecstasy? Sex that leaves you sore in the morning? Sex that makes you want it again the next night? Sex that causes so much pain you love it? Sex that is pleasure, sex that is bliss, sex that is crazy, sex that is D. All the above and so much more? Yeah, I just asked a whole load of questions about impossible sex.
I want a guy to be a man and fucking kiss me. Who needs permission anymore? Hell a dude has his hands all over my ass, he did not ask em! why do guys act like they need permission to kiss a girl? If I let a guy grab my ass why do you think you need permission to kiss me? Dumb ass. But no, I am not going to just let you have it. Push me down, hold me down, grab my face, pin my against the wall, get AGGRESSIVE! Kiss me like you owe me a million. The first time you kiss me I won't kiss back. Second time I'm going to beg for it baby boy. Tell me how you want me to do it baby. Show me what you want me to do. Love it even if i do it wrong and teach me how to do it right. don't ever complain when you get it, or even if you never do, because you were even lucky to be talking to me.
I want to bite you.I want to tease you. I want you to bite me. I want you to tease me. I want to scratch you up, i want you to leave scars on my back and on my legs. Give me hickeys in secret places. When I'm naked I'm prepared for your judgement and ready to please. I don't make love, love can not be made, it doesn't exist on this earth. We make passion, let me melt into you and make me feel like I got hit by a fucking truck in the most amazing way possible.
Are you ticklish? I'm not. A guy can be the strongest man in the world but if he's ticklish you have just taken control. I love that power I gain when I'm with a guy that's ticklish. Abs should always be ticklish. I have tricks and guys love it. I can tell by watching a guys face when he is happy. What is it I do? Use nails. Ticklish guys, who have amazing abs is preferable for this trick. Start by tickling their sides and tummy then work you nails deeper into his skin and scratch him then slowly more your fingertips over his stomach. He will love it. I promise. If you don't know this trick you should. I think if I was ticklish and had abs it would turn me on too. But I love the feeling of nails grazing across my skin on my back and on my tummy. if you put your hands on my butt I'm going to love it, because I love my butt and you should too. If you like boobs, then you'll love my butt. Lemme turn around, smack it! Don't miss, make it hurt. I don't want to be able to stand, I don't want to be able to sit, I just want you to hold me and kiss me.
Do I want you to use a condom? Yes! You can go longer I think. You don't have to worry about pulling out and watch out for them STDs. Who have you been with? Hm... And you better not stop until I'm done. I got naked for you, remember I'm not easy, so do it for me and maybe you'll get something special.
Can't wait to have a car. Can't wait to have money. People will have to watch out. I'll be the problem angel. Girls step back because I'll fuck you up. Boys I know already, but seriously you need to back up, too. Can't get the other night out of my head. I really shouldn't get so hopeful. It's clear he's off the walls. Can't control him. But I don't think you could control me either if you tried.
Duct tape. Kinky. Keep quiet now, scream later. No, seriously.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to buy sweatshirts. I wish I didn't have to wear my own. I like even borrowing from my friends. Stupid guys.
I struggle with society and principles. I struggle to make guidelines that satisfy both. I don't really know what I want. I have an idea but then I turn around and want something else, whether it's more, whether it's less. I don't know. Am I scared? Is it just adrenaline that runs it's course and make me crazy? Am I bipolar? Sometimes OCD? Don't know.
Going to try to sleep eventually, but I had to vent. Get this out on paper.
Why can't I sleep? Why did momma have to wake me up? I knew I hadn't eaten. I didn't plan on eating. I didn't want to. I was tired and bored. What was so wrong with that? Then i go ahead and get up and spill pop all over the table and chair. i should have been in bed asleep! But no, everyone has to be rude and wake me up. Now I can't sleep anymore and I been laying her for two hours. it just makes me mad. And I been on edge for like weeks now! And all I want to do is cry. Can I have sex? Rough as hell sex? Sex that will make me cry, yell, scream? Sex that leaves bruises, hickeys, bites, and scratches that are more than skin deep? Sex that is on the floor, on the table, on the couch but feels like you traveled the world? Sex that just gets you going you don't even know what you're doing or how you knew to do it like that? Sex that puts you in a crazy state of numb ecstasy? Sex that leaves you sore in the morning? Sex that makes you want it again the next night? Sex that causes so much pain you love it? Sex that is pleasure, sex that is bliss, sex that is crazy, sex that is D. All the above and so much more? Yeah, I just asked a whole load of questions about impossible sex.
I want a guy to be a man and fucking kiss me. Who needs permission anymore? Hell a dude has his hands all over my ass, he did not ask em! why do guys act like they need permission to kiss a girl? If I let a guy grab my ass why do you think you need permission to kiss me? Dumb ass. But no, I am not going to just let you have it. Push me down, hold me down, grab my face, pin my against the wall, get AGGRESSIVE! Kiss me like you owe me a million. The first time you kiss me I won't kiss back. Second time I'm going to beg for it baby boy. Tell me how you want me to do it baby. Show me what you want me to do. Love it even if i do it wrong and teach me how to do it right. don't ever complain when you get it, or even if you never do, because you were even lucky to be talking to me.
I want to bite you.I want to tease you. I want you to bite me. I want you to tease me. I want to scratch you up, i want you to leave scars on my back and on my legs. Give me hickeys in secret places. When I'm naked I'm prepared for your judgement and ready to please. I don't make love, love can not be made, it doesn't exist on this earth. We make passion, let me melt into you and make me feel like I got hit by a fucking truck in the most amazing way possible.
Are you ticklish? I'm not. A guy can be the strongest man in the world but if he's ticklish you have just taken control. I love that power I gain when I'm with a guy that's ticklish. Abs should always be ticklish. I have tricks and guys love it. I can tell by watching a guys face when he is happy. What is it I do? Use nails. Ticklish guys, who have amazing abs is preferable for this trick. Start by tickling their sides and tummy then work you nails deeper into his skin and scratch him then slowly more your fingertips over his stomach. He will love it. I promise. If you don't know this trick you should. I think if I was ticklish and had abs it would turn me on too. But I love the feeling of nails grazing across my skin on my back and on my tummy. if you put your hands on my butt I'm going to love it, because I love my butt and you should too. If you like boobs, then you'll love my butt. Lemme turn around, smack it! Don't miss, make it hurt. I don't want to be able to stand, I don't want to be able to sit, I just want you to hold me and kiss me.
Do I want you to use a condom? Yes! You can go longer I think. You don't have to worry about pulling out and watch out for them STDs. Who have you been with? Hm... And you better not stop until I'm done. I got naked for you, remember I'm not easy, so do it for me and maybe you'll get something special.
Can't wait to have a car. Can't wait to have money. People will have to watch out. I'll be the problem angel. Girls step back because I'll fuck you up. Boys I know already, but seriously you need to back up, too. Can't get the other night out of my head. I really shouldn't get so hopeful. It's clear he's off the walls. Can't control him. But I don't think you could control me either if you tried.
Duct tape. Kinky. Keep quiet now, scream later. No, seriously.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to buy sweatshirts. I wish I didn't have to wear my own. I like even borrowing from my friends. Stupid guys.
I struggle with society and principles. I struggle to make guidelines that satisfy both. I don't really know what I want. I have an idea but then I turn around and want something else, whether it's more, whether it's less. I don't know. Am I scared? Is it just adrenaline that runs it's course and make me crazy? Am I bipolar? Sometimes OCD? Don't know.
Going to try to sleep eventually, but I had to vent. Get this out on paper.
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