It Takes Twice The Amount

One thing I've come across which I think is undoubtly true, is that it takes you twice as long the amount of time you were with someone to get over some them. You may disagree and I'm not saying there aren't exceptions, but you know deep down this statement is true. Sometimes you can get over someone really quick, sometimes it takes almost forever, it just depends on how serious it was.

I suppose it also depends on how it ended. Occasionally I think it's easier to get over someone if it ended badly and you just say you hate each other and be done. That way you know there was no possible future for the two of you and now you can't even talk to each other because you ended it with such anger. Then maybe it easier to gradually let go and just end up friends. Though what really sucks is when this is not mutual, and that is when it gets hard. You want to be friends, besides you have spent a good time together, why should that happiness end just because you don't like each other in that way anymore. Unfortunately the other person has come up with some reason to hate you and doesn't want to talk anymore. The really sad thing is, is this is most times the case. Then there is the reverse affect. You don't want anything to do with them. Maybe nothing was actually that terrible you just have to let go of them because you know it'd be the best. Well the other person doesn't want to stop talking like you, in fact they tell you they want to still be friends. That sucks. With either you wanting to be friends, or the other person wanting to be friends it still is terrible. It leaves you to wonder what could have been. This is why it takes twice as long to get over someone.

The math. If you spent a week with someone, it takes two weeks to get over them. If you spent two months with them, it takes four months to get over them. If you spent a year with them, it takes two years to get over them. I know that sounds like a long time, but thats the reality of it. Imagine now if you spent fourteen years with someone. That's twenty-eight years of getting over one person. This is why one life can affect so many. And you don't even have to be in an official relationship, you could just be talking.

Again, you may disagree, but somewhere deep inside, deep down inside you, you know you are still not over them if it hasn't been twice as long yet.

Throwing Sticks

A bundle of sticks, no real appetite for happiness.
This girl said, "Fuck the world.Shit happens get over it."
If we came from the same vine why is your bloom so different?
Cut off and put in the window for light.
I watch as yu turn from pure white to an eye itching red.
You sit there now proud to be growing with color,
But someday you'll be in the window with me
And all your color will fade.
but by the off-white sahde you'll be
I will never be able to forget what you've done.
So you say I have never been colored.
I don't know those feelings.
How could I be right?
Can you not learn with your eyes?
In the end you'll learn it's not about whats wrong or right,
It's about what is fact and what is fake.

Switching Sides

Ah! Swear if this didn't bother me so much right now. Nooooo! You can't do that! You can not switch sides!
Okay I get things can change. And trust me this change won't last long, it'll be back to normal in no time. The fact being is, I like to be warned when things are going to change. I wasn't warned!!!
It's like this, okay. So your situation changes, I'm cool I can deal with that and I can back you up. I can ride with you, because that's how I am. I won't cause drama if you don't. You just stay how you were, I mean don't let your thoughts change because your situation changes. You got morals and principles right? Yes! Where did they go? Originally you slapped me in the face because I wasn't aware of the changes until they already happened. Then you done beat me the heck up when you go switching sides on me like you did! I wish I could beat you up like that, but no I don't do that. I keep my head screwed on tight and you better thank you God for that because if I didn't you'd be finding yourself six feet under with wood surrounding you.
Don't switch sides! You get on one side and stay with it, once you choose you done. Okay? Okay.

A Prince Is Not A Hero

Okay so I was reading this book. In one part this guy is at a party with this girl. Another guy,who is dunk,  tries to make a move on her and puts his hands on her hips. The guy who was with her beats up the other guy to protect her from the guy trying to make a move on her. Later she calls him her hero.
What? If I was her I would be angry at this guy. I think I could have handled the drunk bastard on my own. If I needed you to beat him up I would come get you and tell you to take care of him if it got to out of hand. I'm sorry but I also get angry when girls say chilvalry is dead. Who cares? I think that's a good thing. A girl should learn and be able to look after herself. Knights in shining armor can stay in the fairytales. I want to be a strong woman and I want a man to understand that. I don't think I should put a burden on a guy to have to worry about him having to save me. No, I'm all good. Though, I do want him to back me up if I ever do need help. There is no need to be a spoiled brat. That's just what you sound like when you say you need a prince.

Too Cold To Stay, Too Hot To Leave

Cold
So Cold
Freezing
Frozen
I'd leave but I have to stay
I'd move but I am still
Warm
So Hot
Burning
Burnt
I'm still but I should move
I'd stay but I have to leave

Just Tell Me You Hate Me

Just tell me you hate me

Don’t leave me wondering

Just tell me you hate me

I’ll leave happily

But I don’t want to shut the book

If there’s still pages to be written

If I have to I will run away

Just tell me you hate me

Who else agrees it is way easier to get over someone and move on if they tell you they hate you?

At Night

At the days end
When the darkness has settled in
I know it's time to sleep
With eyes closed I do dream
Fairytale princesses waiting in a castle
A prince out on a trek
Though not for me
When I wake up there are no fairies
I have to see what is reality
That prince is on a trek
Following a trail not leading to my home
This time and the next I would be alone
Finding time behind a desk
I think about those images in my head
Of a kiss like heaven
But for that I'd have to be dead
Or maybe just a sleep so deep
Which really only means the kiss would be false
Nothing so pure could ever be real
Yet I still yearn for the moon and stars
It holds those wishes close to my heart

Golden-Farewell Fighters

I believe I have found my new favorite song and it actually relates a lot to my life I think right now.

In my short time I’ve realized that there is so much more to life
Than getting older, and getting mine
This is my ready, set, let-go attempt at finding who I am and I’ll be brief
So listen closely

I’ve learned not to talk through movies, when I still don’t know the lines
I’ve learned who not to ask advice from when I can’t make up my mind
When times get tough I’ve learned that breathing is the best thing I can do
And I’ve learned letting go of friends is something I won’t get used to

I’ve learned a fair amount about the world of women and of love
I’ve learned that money doesn’t always mean deserving one or both of the above
I’ve learned it’s hard to be alone when you’re alive
But somehow I have learned that we won’t be alone when we all reach the other side

Something in my heart is telling me I’ve learned to love who I’ve become
I know my learning isn’t done

(chorus)
But Ohhh, I’m afraid I will never quite understand, the way I wish I could
Know everything I would ever need just in case I ever lose my way

I’ve learned not to lie to people who know me better than my word
and I believe I’ve learned to filter out the voices in my head (but I’m still not sure)
I’ve learned that failure’s not an option, it’s frowned upon and rude
And giving up before the bell is something I’ve learned not to do

I’ve learned how to keep my head above the water line in desperate times
I’ve learned to swim when someone lonely ties an anchor to my legs in-spite
I’ve learned to fight, The difference between wrong and right, how to sleep at night
I still don’t have that cartridge but I’m learning how to live in black and white

(chorus)
But Ohhh, I’m afraid I will never quite understand, the way I wish I could
Know everything I would ever need just in case I ever lose my way

Golden, we are golden because we’re alive
We are nothing without our goodbyes
Illuminate our own way from inside
We shine so bright, we shine so

Laughing Stupidity

Why do we laugh at stupid things? Stupid things are not funny they are stupid. There is nothing funny about them. I'm not quite sure I understand. I, myself, laugh at stupid things. Now I wish I could take it back. That was not the right thing to do. I actually could have stopped the stupid thing from happening, if only I had stopped laughing. But I laughed. I stood and stared off into my own little world. Why was I so selfish? I don't mean to do the things I do. I am still learning and naive. To control myself would be a nice lesson to learn. To think not twice but three times would probably be even better. Our surroundings also have a powerful affect on us, but we need to learn to control that. Me, of all people, should definately know this. I have so much more to lose because of this, and a lot more to look down on me because of it. I feel sorry. Sorry, though, is a stupid word. I should do stupid things, but this time I'm not laughing.

Lost Without A Fight

I don't understand this life. It's not making sense. I understand a lot but sometimes knowing things confuses me. Sometimes I don't know to voice my opinion or to keep quiet. Would anyone listen? Would they hear only my words or would they really listen and hear the feeling behind them? Would they dare to read between the lines? I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't hate anyone. I am not trying to be mean. I am not jealous or trying to gain anything. This is just me trying to help. Whether we are friends or if we are not, I want to help. I really think I know what is best.
Honey, I know you're hurt. It's okay. I know you are probably terribly upset. You don't want to stop, you know what you'll hear if you do. That is where I come to understand. I understand, so don't run from me and all of your other friends. I felt the distance and then I started to feel connected again. Now I really feel reject. I know I shouldn't take this personally and I am really trying not to, but don't just walk away like that. I don't know what to say to you, thought. How do I make sure you are okay? Can't you call me? Or do you only talk to him, now? Is that all you care about? I'm sure you are hearing about it every where you go. They don't even know his name. I know his name. I used to know him the same way you do. Though that's all in the past. He hasn't changed. Where there is some positives to this, this is also very bad. The fact that he has not changed is the reason this is has happened. You have to believe it. He needs to grow up. You have to let him. Don't let his life be ruined because his head is in the wrong place. Though, I'm sure his mind wouldn't want to be anywhere else but in deep thought of the most amazing girl on earth. I would know. He is just stuck in the past. He is a man and needs to act like one. He is acting like a high schooler. I don't mean to blame you but you are the reason he is stuck here in high school. He is not able to grow in the right ways as a college person and a man. It'd be better for the both of you. I'm sure there would be a lot less stress put on you. Stay friends yes, but I think it is time to let go of this relationship. It's been long enough. I'm not the only one who thinks this. I'm sure I'm not the only one saying it. I'm so scared though. Rejecting my words is not wise. Just to consider would be recommended. Maybe a compromise is in order.
I still feel like I know you. You haven't change since high school. The decisions you make are not even logical. You complain that she does nothing but what do you do other than complain and tell her to try harder? Do you have any respect? What were you thinking outside? Did you even dare think of her? Why were you even there? This could have all been avoided, but you just don't know when to stop. Listen to me now, if never again. It's time to stop. Stop and look at who you are and where you should be. Where you are now is not the right place. Honestly I don't think I understand what runs through your head. Don't blame other people for your problems. They are not the problem here. Bet you loved to have them come knocking at your door. Sir, do you know you could go to jail for your actions? People can press charges, very harsh charges. You could possibly screw up your life very easily over something very stupid. So stupid it's high school stupid. You are stuck, and it's because you refuse to see that the people you know are holding you back. I'm sure these are people you love. I don't doubt that you care about them very much, but let go, even just a little. Let yourself focus on school and your future. I'm sure you would be amazed what a year could do. In a year you can learn so much. So many things can change. Look at me and you. Just listen, don't reject me. I am not trying to hurt you or just be rude, I want to help. I don't hate you and though I am not quite your friend I hope you'd listen to me as a friend.
I'd like to throw out a disclaimer though, because I know I am still in high school. I am sure I have very stupid moments, but I would also like to think that when the time comes I will not be held back in the past. I know when to hold on and when to let go. Now I think is the time to let go, my friends. I'm sorry. I should have done something. I should have yelled or tried to stop this event from even occurring. Instead I stood there laughing for no dumb reason, just looking at the tree. It would have been easy to stop it. I'm sure it wasn't all that serious. Fights in front of a high school are never that serious. Though, my feelings about this are very serious.
I prayed and I feel very hurt. I don't know who to talk to. I'm scared to tell the people involved the most because I know that they don't what to her it from me. In the recent past, I have said things and it basically ruined my life almost. I almost lost one of the most important things to me. I don't want to risk that. I don't know what to do.  

Red Solo Cup

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKZqGJONH68&feature=bf_next&list=PLEB415063B5BB433E&lf=plpp_play_all&shuffle=435731


This is not a song, it's comedy. Who doesn't love a bit of comedy on their playlist? Are you just totally jokeless? It's cute. Cups have feelings too, and I'm sure they love this song.

I love when he says "woo" and "yucky"

This is a cup that will be your friend at parties when everyone else runs away from your drunken statedness. (Yes, I know that is not a word)

Red solo cup I fill you up
Lets have a party lets have a party
I love you red solo cup I lift you up
Proceed to party proceed to party

Sisterly Love

I love my sister and how she practically knows everyone. If ever I need to know something I can count on her. I will forever know she has my back. My sister is the best thing in my world. My sister is also pretty and envy her amazing gift to look good in everything she puts on. I mean how do you do that? We went to Goodwill and picked out ugly clothes on purpose to see if she would still look good, and some how she was still able to look so cute. I guess her amazing personality just is able to shine throught. I got skills like that, but not as much skill as her. She has done so much more than me in all aspects of life I'm sure. She's gone through more and I don't know if I envy or hate how sensitive she is. She can play piano and violin (though I hate the sound of both instruments.) I just love her. I don't think she knows how much I'd be lost without her. There is no one I'd rather talk to at night or go shopping with. Sisters for life no doubt. This is blood, true blood. (Though swear she has a different daddy(asian.)) I love my sister and best friend, Desirae.

To Text Or Not To Text

I don't know about you, but if I text someone I want to talk. It is a no brainer. I am not going to take time out of my day to be like hey, have you text back hey, then I'm like what's up and you never respond. That is not cool. You know I text you, so text me back. I was just going through the routine of getting to know about your day. I do care about people and want to know how your day went. Why do you want to end the conversation before I even get to the main point of texting you? I wanted to see if you wanted to hang out. Fine, I guess you don't want to hang out. I can find someone else I suppose, but I did not even get the chance to ask. It is like a slap in the face and it was over text, or not text, because you didn't respond. It's cool. I'll still talk to you, next week, maybe. Just text me back, say you are busy and don't want to talk. That would be totally fine. Just do not leave me waiting for a text all day. I mean I could start thinking you were on the street and some man in a big black van pulled up and snatched you. I'm going to call the cops and have all of them looking for you when you were on your couch asleep watching reruns of Keeping Up With The Kardashians. Like come one now. If you aren't going to talk to people why do you got a phone? To call your mother when you're out of milk? I think not.
Also if you have nothing to talk about, do not text me. I did not text you, therefore I am not in the mood to try to make conversation you should have brought to the table when you looked up my number in your contacts. What do you want? Just because you have nothing to do does not mean I'm doing nothing. It is true I am not very busy and I am nice so I will text back, but it is quite annoying at times. And boys I can not stress enough: do not tell me I am pretty and so fine. I know that! I put make up on , I do my hair, I already looked in the mirror today and said "I look good." I don't need you to tell me. I already know you been texting girls all day saying the same thing. Tell me something I don't know please. Maybe we can have an interesting conversation. I don't need an ego boost, trust me, I'm good.

What Nature Is

The sky is not just blue

No, it is ocean blue

I can longer see the horizon

Because the colors blend so beautifully

And the leaves do not just fall

They float down, down

And when they touch the earth

You hear the grass softly leaf

The flowers bloom

The sun is in the sky like an eye watching all of us

Shining like a flashlight

To guide our way throught the dark

Because without the sun

There is no moon to be our light in the darkest of times

When You Come Home Crying

So sick of your tears. How do you cry all time over practically nothing? Go ahead, say it, I'm insensitive. I don't care. I just don't get it. You'd think you'd learn at some point to harden yourself and be strong to keep the tears from falling. I am probably one of the most guarded people in the world. Which you would probably never guess because I am a very open person. The things that make me guarded is the fact I know not to trust people fully and I know that tears are not worth the time. Tears solve nothing. You need to face the facts and get over it. If you don't cry you don't have to make a bridge to get over it, you can just move on. It's much easier. It's not remembering that hurts you, it's the tears, it's the sleep you lose because you are sobbing so hard, it's the work that is procrastinated because you are laying in bed with your tears on your pillow. There is other things to take care of. Way more important things that crying about something that will have no relevance tomorrow.

I love Black and White Photos

This picture could have been a lot different if it was in color. But it's not and I think a lot more people would appreciate this in black and white.

Maybe it was red but I like it black.

Makeup is for the performers, performers need a mic to be heard and once they're heard the audiance will through roses.

Doggy Weddings?!?

While watching Bravo in the kitchen, because Lion King is playing again on the big TV, I discovered the most weirdest thing: A doggy wedding. Why didn't I know these went on? I did not even think this was possible. Is it like an actual wedding with the wedding certificates? That's just ridiculous though. Isn't that a waste of money? There are people starving in Africa and you have a wedding for your dogs? Ridiculousness.

Well don't they look cute? Yes. I'm sure those outfit cost a pretty penny as well. Designer doggy clothes. Oh lovely America. 

Friday Night At My House

Alone? Dear goodness. Am I the only teenager on the face of the earth who has nothing to do EVERY Friday night? There are parties, that I don't know about. There are movies, that have names I don't even know. There are new episodes of TV shows on, I am not watching them. There are people on dates, that I am not a part of. Why? Because I can't even think about these things because I am not able to go. I would love to go to a party just to socialize. I don't want to smoke, I don't want to drink, I just want to have fun. Plenty of people go to the movies. I don't go because I am a penny pincher, and unfortunately so are my parents and finding a ride is such a hassle. TV shows come on that I'm not allowed to watch. It sucks because that is what everyone watches, which puts me at a disadvantage when trying to have a conversation. Some people are out with their boyfriend or girlfriend, but not I Popeye. I am single as a pringle.
So what do I do on Friday nights? Watch Lion King on repeat because I have a two year old sister. I turn off episodes of CSI, The Real Housewives, Ghost Whisperer, Millionaire Matchmake, Tough Love, Mob Wives, Jersey Shore, Glee and so on because I'm not allowed to watch them. I am on facebook just looking at people's profile pictures and seein their statuses about how much fun they are having. I am blogging about the most random things you could ever imagine.
Anything would be better than sitting on my butt at home. I would rather work until 12 at night than do this. I would rather have the tiny hairs on my toes plucked off. I just want to do something. I like to meet people. I like to shop. Take me somewhere, somebody please. Life would be so different if I had a job and a license.

The Connections of Evolution and the Future

As a Christian I do not believe in the theory of evolution. At least as far as monkeys to humans, but I do believe in the existence of change, or otherwise evolution. I think businesses can go through evolution, technology goes through evolution, and people in general go through evolution in themselves.
Change is good. It can be bad, but it can show you very valuable lessons and you can learn from that. You can go back to what you changed but what you learned from that experience you can't just ignore. Through all levels of life we have to take the past into consideration when determining our future. For example, if you are reletively poor you can't strive to go to the most expensive college to be doctor. Great you want to be a doctor, great there are scholarships you can acquire to help you with financial issues, but in all reality you can't plan to go to an expensive college. Poor being you past, you can't plan on being totally luxurious in the future. It's unrealistic and you always should think realistically. It's okay to dream but you do not live in a Disney movie.
Evolution in the sense of monkeys to humans I think is unrealistic. Evolution in the sense of people changing is totally realistic. People who are totally outgoing could turn shy if a big event comes alont where it alters their life. People who are shy could turn outgoing if given the chance. It's just things like that.
The past has a lot to do with a person's future. If you really want to know somone and how there future is going to go, you have to know their past. It's complicate, but basically simple. One event in a person's life could effect them forever. I know of someone who is embarrassed quite easily. I didn't notice it until I was told of a story that happened in elementary school that was probably very embarrassing. That could have lead to her being more opt to being embarrassed. So now I understand it her a little more. I bet she's completely unaware of that knowledge though and my acquired theory, but it's nice for me to know.
Things will change and evolutinize, but the lessons we learn from the past events will determine our future and the changes we make. Everything happens for a reason and it's all connected in some special kind of web.

A Gun Without Bullets

Playing sports keeps you in shape and you don't have to do much else because you have practices and games 2-3 days a week. When you quite sports you don't notice until it's too late that you are out of shape. It totally sucks.
You want to look good, you want to be in shape and show off how awesome you are. Being in sports obviously shows you like to be active. Having a team and wanting to win in plenty of motivation to work hard while conditioning. But once you quite sports really you lose motivation to work out and be active. So that body you loved is slowly slipping away and you don't notice it until you hate what you've become.
Starting to work out again is a hassle. Especially when you've never done it before on your own. You have no motivation and you don't know what to do. You want to do it, you have plenty of time to do it, you just don't. How do you change that?
I believe women should be strong, independent, sources of true power. Why shouldn't a woman own a business or make tons of money working? Why shouldn't a woman know how to shoot a gun or fight really well? These are things I think women should be encouraged to strive for. Break the sex barriers and make the only difference between men and women is the organs we possess.

something like rant

i gone tell eeeverybodyyy. you gone have no place to hide. you wanna run? we find you! we find you! best watch yo back. better hop back over that border. we gone find you. think you gone confuse me with some other language. well i got somethin else comin at you. bop. yeah bop. gone bop you in the nose. bop. now whos laughing? oh yeah me. im quite entertained. haha. thats what you call quailty entertainment. them tan skins crying like little girls who just found out hello kitty is no longer gone be selling. daaaang talk about the world ending. oh yeah thats gonna be coming up soon. 2012! yeah but imma just take care of you right now. and imma tell everybody. imma have my girls on you, and my girls girls gonna get their girls on you. yeah watch out. you best back up cuz tstat hopped up in here. yeah i was actin, you can't touch this. i aint like that. you wanna get some you gone have to work for it. yeah you think you can say you dont wanna hang and imma just give up the fight. whatever i aint wanna hang with you anyway. yeah. yes. si. si. s'il vous pliat get out my face. so should i delete yo numba? you said not to but i think i might. yeah. yes. si. see what? you aint see nothin. you wanna see something? look a little lower and you gone wish you had me backin up! im packin junk in my caboos. i see you. i see you. trynna be cool. but nah nah you aint cool. you nothing. you gone be nothing till you get something and honey you didnt get something you got nothing. so just be quiet. i have other things to tend to than worry bout you. im just sayin i can do better. you aint nothin nothin nothin. best believe i can have anyone i want. i just dont try. dont wanna try. cuz then i come across losers like yo nasty bootay. that ight i gotchu i gotchu. back up. step back. back up. im tellin everybody.

Addicting Words

So this will probably be short, but I haven't written in forever and I finally came up with something to write about.
Okay so you're being chill. You come across a word like, just for example, "dazzling". Whether you heard it from someone or read it. It gets like stuck in your head and now with every conversation you have, whenever you get the chance you say "dazzling." Like you tell your friends about going to the store: "Oh my gosh guys this new coat I found is dazzling." Like you tell your co-worker you like their display in the lobby: "Stacy, the display you set up is dazzling, the costumers should love it." Like you telling your sister about this guy you want to hook her up with: "Hey, you need to hang out with this guy I met the other day. He's really cool and just dazzling. I'm sure you two would have a lot of fun together."
So now that you get the point. Isn't it annoying? Like you always constantly using that word. And you don't really know if other people are noticing it more than you are, but either way you can't stop saying it. You already know you'll be stuck saying this word for the next month or so. Sometimes it's not just one word, sometimes it's a phrase.
Some recent addicting words for myself : "mayjor" "bro" "stupid" "classy" "swear" "cute"
Some recent addicting words I've noticed for other people: "dude" "legit" "immature" "cliche"

Things I'm Scared Of

I don't have normal fears. Most people are scared of the dark, or scared of snakes and spiders. Maybe you're scared of clowns or guns. I don't know. While the dark can be creepy I'm not really scared of it, which I'll explain. Snakes and spiders are fine, most of the time when I see a snake it's caged and as long as I don't bother it, it won't bother me. More than likely it'll hide from me. Spiders are fairly tiny and I can kill it with a large shoe. Clown can be a little creepy, but, again, I can deal. Guns, I mean there is a reason to not trust them. My real fears are 3D movies, Teeter Totters and not the dark but what is in the dark.
3D movies are scary as I don't even know what! You are going to see a movie people! A movie is supposed to be on a TV or a screen at the theater. I don't want to have things popping out at me while watching a MOVIE! It's just unneccesary and scary. I'd rather jump out of a plane than watch a 3D movie. That is not even close to being a lie. Don't think I'm naive and never even been to a 3D movie. I have been to several. I kept the glasses on the first few times, I jumped and was freaked out. The last time I went to a 3D movie I just watched it without the glasses. I just couldn't do it. If you would like to hear my nice conspiracy keep reading this paragraph. Okay so I think 3D movies was originally a plot made by aliens in hopes to take over planet earth. So they kidnapped a few people and brainwashed them and put in ideas of making a 3D movie. These people came back to earth and created 3D movies. Great. So now people go into see the movies and then you see an alien while in the theater, but you think nothing of it because you just think it's part of the movie and you are so amazed at the reality of the 3D affects. No one even notices the brain washing! They're just so occupied with the amazing movie. Wooo! Fear 3D movies! Oh and 3D movies don't work too well when you have to wear those special glasses but you aren't blessed with good eyes so you already have glasses on to see where you're going. Yeah 3D movies and people with bad eyesite don't mix very well.
Teeter Totters are just evil and man-made. Man-made objects are not to be trusted. So blame the janky making of this one I was on when I was like in 3rd grade. I was on the teeter totter, it was fun. That was until my leg went under the seat and was smashed! I had a huge bruise and a gash on my calf for at least two weeks. I was tramatized and never got on the teeter totters again. They are evil.
I am a person who actually loves the night and the dark. I don't like to open the windows all the time because I just like the dark. I love the night because I love the moon and the stars. The moon was "my moon" when I was like two. So, I'm not scared of the dark. But with the dark you have to be on high alert. At night is when the creepers come out. It's a more likely time for people to do stupid things because the bar closed and there are drunk people walking home. Yay! I like to take walks at night, I love it, but I don't really like to be alone. I do get paranoid, but then again I'm always paranoid and I'm even paranoid when I walk alone in daylight. The dark doesn't make it scary, it's the timing that does.

Lips Say Hello

Exchange of names and phone numbers.
Smoke made the room cloudy.
Made eyes go blind,
And words almost slur together.
A different time and a different setting.
Touching and bed sheets.
Bare and warm showing off it's beauty.
Lips say hello and teeth have conversation,
Sending out a taste the tongue will never forget.
The memory of the exchange will not fade.
Months go by, day turned to night.
Not thinking only craving,
Hello and conversations again.
Oh, what a nice conversation.
How it made the nerves tingle.
Never did was this imagination possible,
Something so sweet and salty,
It tasted so good and will not be forgotten.
No other meeting could exceed,
For the conversation was so intimate.
It'd be nice to never have another craving,
One that might be satisfied by fruits,
But this craving is never ending,
Only temporary fulfillment is achieved.
The hunger will grow in the pit.
Always there and not dimming.
Thoughts of how it shouldn't have been.
If never tasted there would be no hunger.
Knowing a snack would not do,
A table of entrees would only fill the pit.
Feeling a little shy to a hey or hi,
Why can't they say hello?

Hard To Say I Love You

It's not hard to say I love you. People say it all the time every day. What's hard is following through and realizing what you had just said. There are ups and down in our lives and there are those times we really just aren't nice to people. How are you showing love if you are constantly hurting someone. Love is unselfish, but today's people are always worried about themselves. That's not a bad thing, to be conserned for your own well-being, but when you tell someone you love them, for some reason they believe you. Love doesn't have to mean you're in love, though. It could just mean you really care about that person and enjoy their company. So, just think about it a little more when you say those words, they mean more than you know. It's kind of like signing an invisble contract.