12 October, 2012

Dirty Language

Ass. Asshole. Fuck. Fucking. Mother Fucker. Bitch. Whore. Slut. Cunt. Sex. Shit. Bull Shit. Damn. Damn It. Exclamation Mark?
Are you appauled at this language? Some people are, maybe even most people. This type of language is looked down upon in schools and the work places; other times in homes or daycare facilities. Not saying they should not be looked down upon but are they not a part of the English language and our history? They are just words. While these words are unprofessional they all have meaning and many uses. Those meanings and uses can be determined by the person whom choses to use them. Though some are totally against any use of these words I think that when used at the appropriate times they can hold very powerful meaning and make a stronger statement. In a way it can make you look more cultured and, dare say it, maybe a little more educated. Be careful though because sometimes the use of the words are blown out of the water and abused. The words make you look ignorant and stupid. Never, ever, be caught like that. In this day and age you have to look smart to get a job. Don't get caught using these words with abuse. They are like children. They are like capitalizing in a sentence, or putting a period.

You're a Damaged Asshole.

Damaged. What does that even mean? What is damaged to a dictionary? Harm or injury to property or a person, resulting in loss of value or the impairment of usefulness (thefreedictionary.com). Could someone have summed it up better? Damaged like a vase. A glass vase that has been shattered on the floor. Now the pieces are left there to damaged something else. Is that not what usually happens? What has been damaged cannot just be fixed? If not why can it not be left alone to be damaged then? Why does it have to continue to cause damage to other things? Some of those things were perfect and fine. Some of those things were rare and precious. Some of those things were good and lovely. Now they are damaged and ugly. Now they are broken and disgraced. Now they are cursed and devalued. Though that is only what it has become and is viewed as, but maybe it is not the subject that is, maybe instead it is the verb. Damage is ugly. Damage is broken. Damage is disgraced. Damage is cursed. Damaged is devalued. Why do we not hold on to the subject and let it know that it is not the thing that is looked down upon, but instead it is the Damage that is receiving the shaking heads. Why do we not seem to care? Why do we not blame the action? Why blame the subject all the time? Damage has no feelings, the subject does.

02 October, 2012

Puppeteer of Our Past


It’s amazing how things can trail along behind you with a little string and you barely even notice it until every once in a while it trips you up. Then even still it’s only a trip right? You haven’t completely fallen yet so why even pay attention. You just keep walking like nothing is wrong, like nothing is there that might sneak up behind you when you least expect it. Then again, why worry? Doesn’t everyone else do that same thing and not really care about their past or what they’ve done? They just let it follow, never taking notice in it and going on with their lives. In this day and age it's pretty easy to do. The world is run by the clock and every second counts. But what about that string? When you trip up doesn't that set you back on your timing? Why not call a time out to revisit what is tied to the other end of that string so you can finally be free from whatever it is. That would be the smartest thing to do, right? Why would you do it any different? Though, sometimes maybe it just takes us the complete fall, with broken bones and stitches, to realize that maybe it's time to get rid of that string wrapped around our ankles.

Losing. Lost.

So have you ever done something that had ruined something that was seemingly so perfect? Have you worn the guilt like a boulder on your shoulders? It’s like you want to talk about it and possibly fix it but things have been okay since the incident and you don’t want to bring up issues that happened maybe months ago? It may even seem like it shouldn’t be a big deal, but to someone that thing hurt them. Then because of that thing things just aren’t how they used to be. Sometimes you get so close to it being good again but then next thing you know it’s like nothing is there. All you want is for it to be good again but you don’t know what to do. Maybe all this time since the incident you’ve been pretending and so now it can’t be fixed even if you tried. Like in the back of their mind they have made up their mind that this is all you are ever going to be and you no longer mean as much to them as you did. Maybe you should stop waiting around for something to happen when it’s not and make the move to have the talk. Maybe it could end up good and make the relationship stronger. Sometimes trust can be diminished but it is not totally lost, therefore you can gain it back. Trust, is probably the biggest issue after an incident happens. Then maybe set a time period of when you expect things to be getting better and if they are not at least starting to be better then you know to end it and move on. That’s just how it is, and I suppose how it should be either way. This could go for any relationship: a friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, mother, father, daughter, son, sister, brother, or any other person you may come into contact with and have some kind of relationship with them.