Moral Of the Story

It's probably becoming unhealthy how much I think and talk about sex, but I'm not going to stop now. I wonder if it is a normal thing for the other person to dress you? Where did you pick up that habit? I had sex for the first time and afterwards he put my underwear and pants back on. It was the weirdest thing. Since then that's kind of stopped only because we usually remain naked and cuddle together now, but I still think that is the weirdest thing.

This image is one I think a number of people may have seen and even agree with it because they've experienced it. I had seen it before having sex and it surprised me that when I had sex he was the one to put at least some of my clothes on.



Maybe it doesnt' mean anything. Maybe it does mean something. I just thought I'd share that. Maybe I'm making some people feel a little jealous. Well, my sexual encounters so far have actually been surprisingly good, though at times puzzling and odd.

I Want Him To Want Me Love Him

I don't know if anyone else has run into the guy who won't just make you his girlfriend. What are some reasons he won't just make it official? Is he just a player? Does he not want a commitment because he wants to be able to flirt with other girls freely? Or is he actually afraid? Maybe he was hurt before in the past and now has a hard time trusting, even if he really likes you. It's hard to tell waht a guys true motivations are for his actions sometimes.
I have a burning desire to just ask. Yet, I don't ask. I guess I want to ask in a way where I won't be accusing him of anything negative. Even though I really believe he really does like me. Who knows he could just be enjoying what is being giving to him? Maybe he's just accepting the now while waiting for the next best thing that comes along. I really doubt it. I have a pretty strong gut feeling that he's actually scared. Maybe it's some kind of insecurities he has inside or some other insecurities he has with society being judgemental.
The type of guy that knows tons of people. It's clear he's always been pretty good at socializing. If you were to put him in a room with a complete stranger I'm sure he could have them being friends within a few hours. While I find this totally endearing about him, it also worries me, because while he can conversate and know tons of guy friends, he also knows a lot of girls. There have been no real signs that he is serious with anyone else. Not even just one nighting, though he does go out and party a lot. It sounds like he just goes to have fun himself and be with his dudes. I'll ask him about his week and he'll tell me what he did and it's always some crazy stories. I don't feel like he holds much back. And why do I feel like he doesn't hold much back? Well, because there is nothing to hold back. He just went and partied hard like a dude.
Maybe it's just him but I'm not sure I know too many guys that would really ask what you want to do, "Wanna see a movie, stay in and watch a movie, or go out with some people?" I'm not sure I know to many guys that would go to a dance recital either. That's a bit of a girly thing and enless you actually liked the person I'm sure you wouldn't go, you'd find some kind of excuse not to go. He skipped soccer and had to bring along his brother. Why the trouble? And I'm not sure how many player type guys would kiss you on the forehead. What guy would let you cry on their shoulder if he didn't like you and care about you? I dont' know. I think you'd have to be the most cold hearted person to lead a girl on that much. And I'm sorry but he is just not that mean.
He actually seems kind of sensitive. Everytime I'm with him, alone, or even in public, I am surprised by what I learn about him. I am constantly surprised on little things he says or does. It's a good surprise. I just hope he's sincere.
There's just that one thing. And that's when we go out and someone asks if we're together. I just stand their usually and let him answer and he says, "Oh we're friends." Okay really we're friends? I get that we're not boyfriend and girlfriend but to call us friends is crazy. Especially when a guy is asking and you tell him "we're friends." Does he not realize I am an attractive girl and he basically just gave everyone in that room permission to flirt with me because we're not together or anything, "we're jsut friends." It doesn't sit right with me. I'm cool with the relationship we have right now. I don't care about labels. I've never been to big with boyfriend/girlfriend things myself, but seriously we got to find a creative way to say we're like together. If we are, I guess, to say. We have been talking and we hang out a lot. My friends wonder why we are officially together because we do everything that a boyfriend-girlfriend couple would do.
I worry that even if I gave him all the space in the world he would have a feeling of being trapped if I asked him to be in a relationship that he didn't want to be in. I think he likes me but those labels are just not his thing. I don't think he wants to be thought of someone else's but his own. Yet he's called me "babe", "baby", "my love", and "my girl." Though I think I even pushed him back a few steps when one time he said "I wuv you" and I told him not to say that.
Still we kiss. I've met his mom before. We had gone to prom together even. He has asked what my parents thought of him though he has never really gotten a chance to meet them. I've spent the night at his house several times. It's coming to that three month mark, which is when a lot of guys stop talking to me. It's getting to a make or break point and I now have a lot of questions about what is really going on between us. Does he really like me? What is really holding him back from making it official?

A Good Relationship Doesn't Need A Prince Charming

No I'm not in a relationship, but being "together" with this guy has made me think about what I want in a relationship. Most girls would say, "Oh I want roses on Valentine's Day" "He would hold all the doors open for me" "He'd carry me over puddles so my feet don't get wet" "We'd write notes to each other and sign 'I Love You'" "We'd text each other good morning and good night" and the list goes on, I'm sure you know.
Honestly, I hate roses. I think they are so cliche. Roses are traditional and classy. I'm not exactly traditional or classy, so please keep roses away from me. Holding open the door is just something a guy should do, but there is no need for him to get out of the car, walk to the other side and open it for you. Ladies you CAN show some independence. So the carrying over the puddles was a bit over the top, but I'm sure some of you are like "Oh he'd be my prince charming," sorry honey that will never happen. Notes are cool and all, but not something needed. Good morning and good night really? What if one of you has to get up really early for work and the other wants to sleep in, but you don't know so the one who gets up early texts "Good Morning" and wakes the other one up and then you're mad at each other and a fight starts? That's not a good thing.
Yes I'm exaggerating things a little, but some people would be like that. Girls have CRAZY ideas of what there perfect guy would be. Blue Eyes. Green Eyes. Dark Hair. Short-Spikey Hair. Tall. Muscular. Athletic. Smart. Just some physical aspects. Hilarious. Keeps me smiling. Takes me on romantic dates. Walks on the beach. Watching the stars.
I'm not saying all these are bad. Yeah, those things would be lovely, but I don't think we should DEMAND those things. I think we get to the idea where if these things don't happen right off the bat that they never will or that the guy is just not the right one. Every relationship is different. Everyone is going to want to do different things at different times. Some couples go fast. Some couples go slow. That doesn't make the relationship any better or worse.
One of the cutest couples I know: this boy and this girl. I met them at a party before a while ago. They aren't the most attractive people, though I do think the girl is pretty. They drink. They smoke. They party. They do it together. I think it is the cutest thing. I feel they really love each other. Yes they are in high school and maybe it won't last, but I think for now they are perfect for each other. They're so adorable.
Let's see. What DO I want? I'd have to say it really doesn't matter what he looks like. I can't pin point what he MUST look like. I'm kind of picky when it comes to how he looks. Must look good. I tend not to like white guys but they're not excluded either. Eyes, no color preference. I just need to love his eyes. Eyes are like the most important part of the face. I'm harsh in judging peoples noses. Lips, can't be too small or too big. A guys hair: I hate when it's really long. Am I dating a guy or a girl? Come on dude get a haircut. I like a dude with a nice body, just nice is fine. Nothing too over the top like G.I. Joe or something.
I want someone who will make conversation when I get quiet. I want someone who will let me love them. I want someone who really loves their family. I like guys who have good values but will have fun. I'd be nice if we both believed in Christ. I'd like a guy who would go on walks with me. I like adventurous, spontaneous guys who will get me up off my butt and go out to do things. I want a guy that will support me in the little things I dabble in. It would be nice to maybe be with someone who wants to go into business like me. We could learn and help each other with our goals. I want a guy who can look at a play boy magazine and then look at me and think I should be on that cover instead. I want a guy who is kind of athletic but doesn't shape his life around sports. I want to be able to sit on the couch with him and have just as good a time as if we had gone out. I want a guy who will kiss me in front of anyone at any time. Who will hold my hand in public. I want a guy who will inspire me to go to new places and try new things. I want a guy who will love the same whether I'm naked or all dressed up. I want a guy who thinks I look amazing with no makeup on and now matter what my hair looks like. I just want a guy who will make me better and who I can make better, just by being together.

Missing Red Wallet

How does a fairly large red wallet just disappear? I'm tell you I don't understand. How does it disappear out of a huge purse?
I'm missing my red wallet and the contents inside: $15 dollars and some odd change, driver's license, kings island season pass, and my $50 dollar gift card to Forever 21! It sucks!  I'm not even freaking about the actual cash I'm freaking about the gift card, season pass which was $100 dollars and I've only gone twice so far, and my license. I need those things like they're necessary. I'm going to Florida for vacation soon and would like to get some new clothes for the trip. Now I have no money and I shouldn't really be driving without my license with me. I'm going to have to call Kings Island to see what I can do to get me a new pass. I'm not spending anymore money at that place I mean dang, that's expensive.
The last time I saw this precious wallet was after I took a walk Monday June 25th. I had taken my money with me encase I wanted to stop somewhere to get something. I took the wallet out of my purse and stuffed my 15 dollars back in it. Then put it in my middle zipper compartment of my purse, where it belongs! That night I took my purse with me just in case I'd need my money for going out with the guy I'm talking to. We were in his car that night I kind of stuffed it under my seat because I don't like things around my feet. Then we went to his house and I just set it at the end of his bed; the same place I always put my bag when I'm over there. I never got into my purse for anything that night. I asked him if he had seen it anywhere. He said he looked and he hasn't seen it. When I came home from that day I had thrown my bag on my bed. I've checked everywhere on my bed and I haven't seen it at all. I don't understand how I can't find a red wallet. It's red! My room is mostly brown, I think I'd be able to find a red wallet.
Maybe my purse ate it...Things have gone missing in that thing. I don't know how a huge wallet just would disappear. I must shake my head at these crazy happenings. Well now I got a new, blue, small wallet. I need to call Kings Island to get a new pass. I need to call the DMV to get a new license. And well I need to party so I can find some guys to get me some new clothes for Florida. Boys, we tell then, get your money up!