Beads Of A Necklace

Do you think it’s realistic to dream? Is there a purpose? Dreams aren’t reality…a fantasy is just a fantasy right? Or can you make them real? Could all dreams/fantasies be made real if you tried? If you try to make a dream or a fantasy real, is it a dream or a fantasy still, or would you call it a plan? Or a goal? Is it worth it to dream even when you know it is not even possible? Do you think you could purposefully stop dreaming and fantasizing? Is it realistic to always think realistically? Or is it more realistic to have a balance between thinking realistically and dreaming?

This world is crazy. Always making me wonder. I believe that what is real is real here. But call me crazy, I believe that there are other dimensions. I mean the drawings on a paper are 2-dimensional. This world is 3-dimensional, 3-D. What about 4, 5, 7, or 12? You can’t see the other dimensions but they all function, separately but coexistent. I don’t know how many other dimensions there are, but I figure there are at least a good handful. We can’t see them, maybe only slight visions. Maybe that’s where our delusions come from, our nightly dreams and even our nightmares. Just small glimpses of what exists around us, things that are invisible. All controlled by one being above us all, one who connects them all by a thin but strong string. The dimensions are beads of a necklace that their creator wears upon its neck. Too bad its creation often chokes its creator, but a creation is like a child doing wrong and doing right, letting you breath then making you hold your breath. Some moments we are breathing so hard and other times our breath is totally lost. It is lost in our dreams and in our realities.  

Walks With Delani: Crazy Woman in McDonalds

Summer is right around the corner and I have been enjoying this hot spring weather. I have a three old sister and she is the joy in my life I promise you. So I like to take her on walks.

Okay so today I was planning on going to the park with her but I went to Burger King with her. We walked and passed beautiful flowers and a pond. I told her I would throw her in the pond but she said it was yucky. (I totally agree.)
We had a lovely dinner at Burger King, though she was being a brat. Which is just a matter of being three. She talks like she's grown. She is a little diva girl.
Then we left Burger King and went to McDonalds. I got some ice cream and we sat down. I did not plan on leaving for a while, that was until an old lady walked in. She went over in the corner and set her bag down and sat then loudly asked, "Is it okay if I sit down? Everyone, is it okay is I sit?" I focused my attention on Delani who was climbing a chair. No one answered the lady. There was me and Delani along with a man and his two daughters and then a boy and a girl who came in together. Then she gets up and asks, "Is it okay if I have some coffee everyone?" I think the man had nodded. She said, "It would count on the intellegent one." I looked over at where she had put her bag. This bag is a plastic bag. It looked like it was just a bunch of paper in the bag, but I couldn't tell exactly from how far away I was. Now this lady was looked like she had no teeth and I could swear to you she was on some pills or something. Then she started complaining about something. I decided to leave. I was there with my three year old sister and I wanted to get out of there before she pulled out some dope or possibly a gun. I was a bit freaked out. Maybe the lady just wanted some attention. I mean, she was acting like the floor of McDonalds was some kind of stage. It was crazy.
So we left and had a good rest of the walk home.

Dividing Vines

A bundle of sticks, no real appetite for happiness.
This girl said, "Fuck the work. Shit happens get over it."
If we came from the same vine why is your bloom so different?
Cut off and put in the window for light.
I watch as you turn from pure white to an eye itching red.
You sit there now proud to be growing in the window with me but all your color will fade.
And by the off-white shade you'll be, I will never forget waht you've done.
So you say I have never been colored.
I don't know what those feelings how could I be right?
Because of your words I want to scream and get mad.
I remain calm though, for you are in a fragile state.
Can you not learn with your eyes?
I know our roots will never grow into the soul again.
I know because I have seen others go through the same thing many times.
Don't tell me I do not understand.
I may not know the feeling but I know the situation, the song, the story.

Work It Girl

So I've been working out for about a month now. And I'm really proud of myself that I haven't quit.
I have kind of revised my plan and it's really lengthy so I'm only going to say what I do on Sunday, for now. I still use a five pound weight.

Sunday

1.      Standard Crunches, 15 (abs)

2.      Push Ups, 15 (shoulders)

3.      Bicycles, 15 (abs)

4.      Side Wings, 15 (shoulders)

5.      Planks, 15 (abs)

6.      Frontal Arm Wings, 15 (shoulders)

7.      Thigh Lifts, 15 (butt)

8.      Arm Press, 15 (shoulders)

9.      Leg Kick Backs, 15 (butt)

10.  Above the Head Press, 15 (shoulders)

11.  Squats, 15 (butt)

*drink*

12.  Planks, 30

*drink*

13.  Standard Crunches, 15 (abs)

14.  Push Ups, 15 (shoulders)

15.  Bicycles, 15 (abs)

16.  Side Wings, 15 (shoulders)

17.  Planks, 30 (abs)

18.  Frontal Arm Wings, 15 (shoulders)

19.  Thigh Lifts, 15 (butt)

20.  Arm Press, 15 (shoulders)

21.  Leg Kick Backs, 15 (butt)

22.  Above the Head Press, 15 (shoulders)

23.  Squats, 15 (butt)

*drink*

24.  Planks, 30

*drink*

25.  Standard Crunches, 16 (abs)

26.  Push Ups, 16 (shoulders)

27.  Bicycles, 30 (abs)

28.  Side Wings, 16 (shoulders)

29.  Planks, 45 (abs)

30.  Frontal Arm Wings, 16 (shoulders)

31.  Thigh Lifts, 16 (butt)

32.  Arm Press, 16 (shoulders)

33.  Leg Kick Backs, 16 (butt)

34.  Above the Head Press, 16 (shoulders)

35.  Squats, 16 (butt)

SNOOKI PREGNANT!

So the other day, while watching Jersey Shore, I was like thinking about how crazy all these people are. I think this was the one episode where Mike was saying he might actually get a girlfriend. Well then I got to thinking: What if someone got married? Or worse: What if someone got pregnant?
And low and behold not even a month later I hear Snooki is pregnant.

Can you even begin to believe this? She's also engaged! Snooki of all people on the Jersey Shore. And just a few weeks ago I see her on TV (actually my computer) peeing on the porch and drinking like crazy.